30 A thing I am looking forward to

the last day in the writer's challenge, has a nice subject, a good closure of a month full of revelations and emotions.  

 

One thing I am excited for

I am excited for my daughter, who will become mother soon.

I am excited for her, even if we have no contact, I look forward to August, when I become 'grandpa'. I love the idea, and I reckon that I might not see my grandchild. Sadness aside, I am excited that Anne (that's her name) becomes to see what it is to be a parent, the responsibilities, and for all the joy and being as imperfect as possible. :-)

A well organised life does not always fit with a life with children, and as child it is easy to judge, to tell your parents that they are wrong or should act different.

I did that as well, nowadays I feel sorry for what my parents have had gone through with me. But, I am me, and what is done is done. I don't look back, I look forward. Every day is a new begin.

And, who knows, if the day comes that I can see my grandchild in his eyes, a complete circle of life will be closed.

I never give up hope, I do wish my daughter a happy mothership, and when it is possible, I should like to see a tiny part of it as well. And I think I go to copy this and save it, so that she can read it, one day :)

22 Morning Routine

Today was not a usual morning routine!

Since I have the privilege that I have not a 9 to 5 job, it can happen that days are out of routine, and today was one.  Consequently I visited more doctors today then in the past decade. LOL.  You can feel the relieve now it is done?  :-)

Anyway, back to where it is about in this writer's challenge.

The daily morning routine is like this

Each morning I wake up, mostly at 6, that is one hour before the alarm is going to beep.

After the stunble to the bathroom I pick up my iPad and read about what I have missed during the night.  Mostly it are a few reactions at my good night mesage.What is a bit silly, to read them when I just woke up :) 
Reading the news and then automatically my eyes drop down, and I sleep 5 seconds when the alarm goes and I am fully broken, even more tired then when I went to bed.
Alarm out, realizing where I am, stumbling to the kitchen, putting on the toaster and the kettle, then jumping under the shower.
Wakening up, feeling like a new man, I walk to the kitchen, usually singing and forgetting that my better half still is asleep.
On the other hand, can you imagine someting better then wakeining up with someone singing Queen songs 'over the top'?  :) 
 
I prepare lunch boxes and breakfast, while listening to the radio. I look out of the window, (ah, so nice that it is light again in the morning) checking the weather and see if I need to make plans. 
Then it is time to socialize.  TV on, watching the crimes of past evening and talking a bit. When my better half turns to work, I switch on the Computer and check my mails. Often there follow some calls, and some checks of servers, so that websites run nicely again.

 There might be a meeting, digital or in real. Around 11 I take a break, do something in the household and this way the morning ends. Usually I then wonder where all the hours went to, and I promise myself to be more efficient in the afternoon.  Well, lsucky this scribble is not about the rest of the day :) LOL. 

That's it for now folks, :), More tomorrow.

21 About zodiacs and horoscopes

Day 21 in the writer's challenge leads to the magical world of zodiacs, horoscopes and how that suitts me.
Or not!

When I lived at home, I checked out my mother's magaine and the newspaper, to see what they told me about my zodiac sign, Aquarius.
Magically there was always a find of something that I could relate to.
You are going to meet an intresting stranger.  Well, maybe I did, but since that stranger is still a stranger, I could not find out what the intresting part in him is. Strangers enough, but the rest?
Your lucky color today is red. Yes, that is right, when I want to pass the street, I am lucky that there is red.
 Consequently I read those horoscopes to find out the things that happen anyway.  I was fooled by the clever words that always could fit to what happens in my life.

Later I discovered another zodiac, the chinese one.
 
Since I am a stargazer, this kind of astrology attracted me as well. The hour of birth and all, are included in finding out what sign you are.
 In the long end, after the excitement had gone and reality set in, I realized that here as well the main thing is in a clever organized system that covers many general things what reflect on everyons life, no matter if you are a monkey or a pig, or an ox or a rooster.

I understood why people had find out these explanations in the first place. It is human to try to find an explanation for everything, rather then to accept that somethings are simply not to be explained at all. It is how the bible is written and as well the astrology.

The stars in the sky remained. No matter what kind of astrology (or religion) fooled me, the signs were there and clear. Me, the aquarius, lived more and more according some characteristics like peace keeper and flexibility. How dull it is to think that that is only a character identity for Aqurius :-)
 
No, I do not believe in this explainable predictions. 
I do believe that our path is paved, that the road we go is foreseen for us. Everyone walks his or her own road, and everyone has its role in it. We can not know them all,  there are people walking on our path that are 'intresting strangers', of who we are not even aware.

But, as with the starlight from above, the elements, the nature, it all helps to be the person I am today and the one that I will become tomorrow.
Other then the sign stars, the labels that some have invented, the cosmic stars are real and without borders. You can feel it. Pft the sun is warm today, I need some shadow :)  Let me read a bit.
Here... Today your zodiac leads you to refreshng ideas..  Fits ey? :)
Or not!

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Element: Air
Quality: Fixed
Color: Blue, Blue-green, Grey, Black
Day: Saturday, Sunday
Ruler: Uranus
Greatest Overall Compatibility: Gemini, Libra
Best for Marriage and Partnerships: Leo
Lucky Numbers: 4, 8, 13, 17, 22, 26
Date range: January 20 - February 18

Aquarius traits

Strengths: Progressive, original, independent, humanitarian
Weaknesses: Runs from emotional expression, temperamental, uncompromising, aloof
Aquarius likes: Fun with friends, helping others, fighting for causes, intellectual conversation, a good listener
Aquarius dislikes: Limitations, broken promises, being lonely, dull or boring situations, people who disagree with them

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Chinese Zodiac - Year of the Pig

Pig is the twelfth in the 12-year cycle of Chinese zodiac. The Years of the Pig include 1923, 1935, 1947, 1959, 1971, 1983, 1995, 2007, 2019, 2031, 2043...

Pig is not thought to be a smart animal in China. It likes sleeping and eating and becomes fat. Thus it usually features laziness and clumsiness. On the positive side, it behaves itself, has no calculation to harm others, and can bring affluence to people. Consequently, it has been regarded as wealth.

Earthly Branch of Birth Year: Hai
Wu Xing (The Five Elements): Shui (Water)
Yin Yang: Yin

20

20.  Run your music player on shuffle and write the first 3 songs that play and what your initioal thought is

Well,  Music is my first love, and it will be my last. So this 'writer's challenge'  is a really nice one. The songs that came out are
* AC/DC  Thunderstruck
* Ian Hunter - still love rock and roll
* Cheap Trick - Need your love

And my initial thoughts with this?   
Well, I love rock and roll! :) 

Coincidence (or not?) that AC/DC came out first, the band that is 'hot news' at the moment. Some people are excited about the new frontman, I am not. For me it means the end of the area of AC/DC. 
Another drummer, another guitar player, another singer,..  Well, some should say, AC/DC is Agnus Young, but I disagree with that!
Brian Johnson had the impossible task to take over a legend in the group and he did that in a fabulous way, all those years. AC/DC was unique, their music always recogniseable and on the top.
Even tho I loved Guns n Roses, in their old line up, with Slash, and I still think that Axl was a great performer, one of the better, that is definitely a blast from the past. It is an illusion to think that it will work out, I am sure that stone hard rock n rollers will quit with me.  Enough said of this,, don't get me started :)  hehe

Ian Hunter, well, no need to introduce him as well, I think. A fantastic performer, still, and his highlight were sure with Mottt the Hoople in the early 70's. Yes, this is pretty much Queen related, how I became known with their music. I never regretted it. There is still a cd in my cabinet what has both signatures from Ian and Brian.  LOL, sounds like a comic :)

Third, but not last, another rock and roll classic, from the unbeatable album Live at Budokan. The group around the blond singer Robin Zander and the fully nuts Rick Nielsen. Still kicking ass. 

All those 3 groups did survive the age of time, and are around for more then 30 years., and I have their original albums at vinyl. Need to say more?

Long live rock and roll 

(and bonus points for who recognizes all the songs that I mentioned, that were not the first 3 on the shuffle but playing while I was writing :)  

17 A quote you live by

The writer's challenge today leads me to my inner self. 

Quotes that I live by, are many. It are more then quotes, it are wisdoms, gathered and spread by a lot of people, of what I picked a seed and planted it in my own garden.
And let it grow.

Since life is always different, the Quotes that are most important differ as well.  In that view I live by many.
Many come from songs and one I really live by is this one
The hardest part of love is lettin' go

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How true that is! 
It is in loosing people, changed friendships, but as well in nature, when a beautiful flower ends flowering, when a nice tree is blown away by the spring storms.. When your child is leaving home to build up his own life, when a relation is over. Can you lettin' go?  Do you love (....)  so much that you can let go? 

So many quotes that I can quote, and that speak for themselves, I add a few here without any comment. You can figure out how important they are today in my life.  Or, who knows.. in your life as well?

♥ My make up might be flaking, but my smile still stays on 
(on with the show)
♥ Don't run, but start in time
♥ I m just reflecting you
♥ I still love you
♥ Love is the answer
And the one, that covers it all

♥ Carpe Diem (baby)

15 - Three Pet Peeves

Three Pet Peeves

Okay.. another 'word' that I had to look up.  Luckily some attenders in the writer's challenge with the native english tongue were before, so I think that Pet Peeves can be described as things that you are very much irritatied (or sad) from what others hardly will see that way.

And that 3 times.



Argh, I hate this subject, I don't  like to write about those silly pet peeves! I want to write happiness and fun, I want to make you laugh in respect, smile in the eyes, enlighten your days.  Is this a Pet Peeve already? 


In that case I can continue with another pet peeve in my life.

That moment, that I go out with my camera, and that I want to take a picture and the camera is not working, because the battery is empty, again!   Or because I forgot to put the SD card in it, AGAIN!

It almost belongs to the routines by photographing that I have to recharge one of both before I can get working!


The third Pet Peeve is that I often feel confrontated with things that I don't want to see or read.  When I am watching sport on tv, or a crime, or a movie, I dislike the interruption of the commercials.  
Dang, when James (Bond) almost saved the world and all the sudden a housewife is jumping in joy about that her wash powder now is even MORE refreshing then before!   Well, woman, go to my laundry, instead of filling my screen :)

Good, I stop this scribblle for today. 
I think I ended the way I want to end it. 

Forget about your pet peeves.  Smile to the one that you are dealing with. Smile to the screen even!  The knowledge that some silly person is sitting at the other side with a smile at his or her face, makes me smile already.  How about you?  Don't be a pet peeve :)

Tipps für Urlaubsbilder

1. Tageszeit – die Goldene Stunde ausnutzen
Auch wenn ich im Urlaub gern etwas länger schlafe, nutze ich gern die frühen Morgenstunden oder die späten Abendstunden, um das unvergleichbar weiche Licht der tief stehenden Sonne einzufangen. Die Goldene Stunde, die Stunde vor Sonnenuntergang bzw. nach Sonnenaufgang, taucht die Umgebung in warme Rot- und Goldtöne. Die Bauten der V & A Waterfront in Kapstadt wirken im Licht der untergehenden Sonnen surreal wie kleine Modellbauten.

2. Gegenlicht – Spiel mit dem Licht
Eine alte Fotoregel besagt, dass man als Fotograf die Sonne stets im Rücken haben sollte und niemals direkt ins Licht fotografieren sollte. Direkt ins Sonnenlicht zu fotografieren ergibt ein fahles Bild mit flauen Farben. Trotzdem lohnt es sich hin und wieder die Regeln der Fotografie zu brechen. Bei diesem Bild spiegelt sich die Abendsonne im Meer und taucht die Umgebung in milchiges warmes Licht. Ein wunderschönes Spiel aus Licht und Schatten entsteht. Am Übergang vom Horizont zum Meer bildet sich ein Lichtsaum und die Bäume und Palmen rahmen das Bild als Silhouetten ein.

3. Regenwetter – dynamische Wolken
Regenwetter lädt nicht wirklich zum Fotografieren ein. Auf Reisen kann man sich das Wetter leider nicht aussuchen und muss mit dem leben, was die Natur einem bietet. Da ich trotzdem Regen nicht auf meine Reisebilder verzichten möchte, versuche ich die besonderen Momente einzufangen. Beispielsweise den Moment vor einem Gewitter, wenn sich der Himmel dunkel färbt, die Sonne sich mit einigen Lichtstrahlen durch die Wolkendecke kämpft und die Natur ein beeindruckendes Lichtspiel im Kontrast zu den regenschweren dunklen Wolken zeigt.

4. Grauer Himmel – den Ausschnitt begrenzen
Ein grauer Himmel und flaue Kontraste sind nicht gerade die besten Voraussetzungen für ein Foto. Wenn sich das Motiv scheinbar nicht vom Hintergrund abhebt, hilft mir oft dieser einfache Trick – den Ausschnitt so begrenzen, dass möglichst wenig bis gar kein Himmel mehr zu sehen ist. Auf diesem Bild habe ich den Ausschnitt nachträglich so weit begrenzt, dass die Seelöwen besser zur Geltung kommen.
Denkt aber stets daran, eure Kamera vor starkem Regen zu schützen – durch unterstellen, einen Schirm oder Folie.

5. Timing – der richtige Moment
Rocky Shores heißt der raue Küstenabschnitt im West Coast National Park in Südafrika. Mir war es besonders wichtig, die gewaltigen massiven Felsen richtig zur Geltung zu bringen und gleichzeitig die Dynamik des tosenden Meeres einzufangen. Dafür habe ich auf den Moment gewartet, bis eine große Welle ungestüm über den Felsen hereinbrach und den gigantischen Stein mit  einem Splash schier verschluckte. Im Serienbild Modus habe ich eine Reihe von Bildern aufgenommen bis ich das gewünschte Ergebnis hatte.

Doch beim steten Blick durch den Sucher der Kamera solltest Du eines nicht vergessen: Genieße den Moment, bevor er zur Erinnerung wird.

Christina Nagel-Gasch

12/30 Two words or phrases that make you laugh

Day 12 in the writer's challenge
Two words or phrases that make you laugh

Words or phrases that make me laugh, there are many of them, because I love to laugh and I see the humor in many things. Even when I need to be serious, I more then one time am making a joke of it. 

And there you have it

That is one of my all time favorite phrases. Many of you will recognize it from a song, and if you do, then you know why this makes me laughing. Isn't it funny that laughter and sadness are so close to eachother?
The song where I took this words out, the clip, it are the last things that we ever did get from Freddie, and it is heartbreaking to realize the fun that this man gave us, while he was suffering so much.  Not many shall be able to do so.
A many do enjoy this song, this line, as much as me.

When an entertainer knows that he has not much time, and he gives his best for his audience..  And when it *is the best, well..  Do I need to say more?

Other words that I like, pardon if my language is rude, but for me who has not english as mother tongue this might sound far less evil as for english speaking people.
The words fuckwits everywhere, to describe a situation in what people act unbelieveable, mostly in a bad way. Ha, those situations of course happen often, and then we come up with those words again.

My all time favorite 'two words'  are the ones that I share with my best friend, who is suffering so much, and, when he is not hospitalized, he loves fun and happiness as much as me.
When we take a drink, we say to eachother 'merry christmas' . And then we know the story of our life that we share, the load behind it. His love for horses, his struggle with life, my struggle with life, our mutual madness, and for all, our friendship without words.

So, my darlings, there you have it, my favorite words, next to love and happiness. 

I still love you

11- 30 My current relationship

Day 11 in the writer's challenge can be answered with 1 line.

My relationship is not of your business.

That is, as long as you not part of that relationship yourself of course :-)

Maybe it comes as a shock to you, but I am various relationships.
I can't help it, the resistance is simply too much to handle, I can not control myself, or, better and more honestly, I can not control myself.
My excuse is simple and clear. Why should I restrict myself to one relationship?  Why should I not pick the frutis of more then one?

Tho this basically answerred the topic for today, I think that it is fine to explain my relationship a bit.
My relationship with coffee is clear for everyone who follows me on FaceBook, and before at MsN and who knows me in real.  The days are over that I drank 20 or more cups a day, but still it is a great start of the day. When I have not had my coffee, there is something missing, or I am seriously ill.

Having written this, my relation with the digital world is obvious as well. At the end of past year we had a few weeks that we had no internet, that was already a revelation. Of course I managed, and I got time for some  things that were 'dumped' aside but never forgotten fully.
But yes.. I love my computer, I love to do many things with it.  Writing, for example, contacting with people all over the world, work, free time :)  This is called a serious relationship, and I love it, day and night!

My next relationship that I can reveal is my relationship with Queen.  I live queen, I love queen, I breath queen, I can not live without them, and I not need to. Freddie and the boys brought me many internetotional friends, with who I have a great relationship as well.
I met people world wide, becme very good friends with some and it even turned out to be a serious relationship, the last one I go to reveal.

My relationships are real, and help me through my days and nights. Without them I should be lost, they are anchors in the sea, so that my ship will not drift away. They are stimulating me to do more, they are where I believe in. They make me sttrong, this way I can go on.

My Sabine is truly the love of my life. I never before managed to keep a relationship that long (exception is the computer, lol), and I am looking forward to many many more years.  It is not always easy, but it she the best that ever ccame over me.

Fruit I don't like

10/30  - fruit I don't like

Aaaargh...  Tticky, tricky

I love all fruit. 

From bananas til greapfruit, apples, pears you name it, I like it. Not that I eat it too often, but when, I like a fresh kiwi, and how about a big piece of water melon? Mmmmh, yes, I love fruit.

What I not love in fruit is the modern 'super market'  fruit. Somehow it all tastes like water with a tiny bit of flavour, wrapped in a thing that looks like an apple, tomato or what more.

Where are the times that an apple tasted like an apple, where you really had to bite and what tasted sour and tasty? Where are the pears that did all lok different, in comparance with the cloned fruits that we find on sale?

I get my fruit at the market, once a week, on Saturday. That fruit comes from local farmers. You are even encouraged to come to pick the strawberries, cherries and so on. They do not look all identic. They do not taste all the same. That is fruit, ladies and gentlemen. :)

8/30 a book I love and one I didn't

Today's challenge is a true challenge, because how should I choose a book that I love, while I love so many books?

Let me start to say that I do not know the answer at the book I didn't love.  There are a few that I never finished, but most of them are forgotten and faded away. I tend to enjoy the books that I love, and can read them again and again.  There is one book what I can remember that I didn't like and that is the last issue of Harry Potter (the deadly hollows).  I think the story ends too rude, too many unsolved things in it.  Nevermind, I return to the book I love.

First thought was  Lord of the Rings, especially the first book. Everyone should know the saga of Frodo and Sam, if not it really is a loss.
I thought through my history of books, Robert Ludlum and Jeffrey Deaver came up, with their breath taking adventures, books that I read in a few days, and for what everything else must wait :-).  The Dragon riders of Pern (Anne McAffrey) are awesome and the story of Jamie Fraser, the Highlander Saga, is as well very much worth to read. Oh, and the vampire range of Anne Rice... Just to name a few!

I am blessed with a partner that loves to read. a lot.  And I mean a lot.  She often brings me in contact with new authors and books of what she tells me that I should read them. It is thanks to her that I started to read the books from Josh Lanyon. 
It are crime stories that contain (love) affairs between men.  My favorite at the moment .
..  A book that I love, 
also is  'the mermaid's murders.
The book is well written, but what it lifts far above the other good books is the description of the main persons and the change from hate to affection between the two men. 
Josh describes the feelings and emotions from the main persons so well, that you very soon 'have to'  get feelings for them. They are becoming not just names in a novel, they are real.  I look forward to read the next story of Sam and Jason, and I should recommend you to read one of the books of Josh. I am sure that you will not regret it.

And beware he (well, she, in fact)  writes many books, so if you get infected with this, what is good possible, then you might loose your time in reading. There are worse things, I guess! 

http://www.joshlanyon.com/mermaid_murders.html

7/30 What tattoos you have and if they have a meaning

I start my writer's challenge today as in tradition to ciritsize the subject.

The subject assumes that the writers in the contest have tattoos.  So, now what to do, because I have no tattoos. Am I not able to do the contest? Or shall I let it go and just write on the go.


I never had a tattoo, and it is most unlikely that I ever will have one.
There was a time that I wanted a tattoo, but I never had the guts, I simply do not like to be hurted, or that my body is transformed, in whatever way,. No piercings, no make up, no hair colours, no tattoos (I make an exception for my toe nails in summer!) 

I do not feel the need anymore to etch my skin with a nice Freddie or with the name of someone that I love.  Those signs are etched in my heart, they are mine and no one elses.  Everyone may see and notice my adoration of Queen, of my children, of my girlfriend, and my wisdoms I can write down where ever I want.
Things that I not want to forget, are etched in my heart. It are my hidden tattoos, there are a few of them. And some of you might know a few.


Others will never see them, and that is fine.  Just as it is my skin, and only I decide what to do with it, it also is my heart, and I decide how I will use it.

Hmm, it seems I am in a bit agressive mood today, when I re read this.  I am not.  This day, April 7th, is 'jjust'  a special day.  Etched in my heart. Clearer then the biggest tattoo.

(here the new trend in tattooing.. black/white tattoos...)

6/30 Someone who fascinates me

The 6th day already, and I start to like writing again!

About a person that fascinates me.  

Well.. Every person in my life fascinates me.  Fascinating is for me not the same as admiring. Faschinating is for me being amazed by how the other is and is doing. I am not only fascinated from the people around me, but as well from nature, animals and all what is around.

I am fascinated by the new born baby, that is preparing for its first cry. If you ever saw that, heard the first sound of  the newborn child, then you know what I mean.  A new sound in the universum, more fascinating is not imagineable.  
Children, animals, in fact it is the same. The new life, flowers, it is amazing to see it and also amazing to follow how the things develop. Sometimes you loose the sight, yes, then the fascination transforms to mystic.  What about .... (fill it in), what did become of  ..., after all the time?

I am especially fascinated by people that are not afraid to show their ideas, and stand for it.
People that are standing up for justice, equal rights, against torture, people who want peace,, people that invent things for the sake and wellness of others. Peace fighters, Light workers.  
Oh, and how about angels, aren't you fasciated from them?  Well I am!   My guardian angel always anazes me. No matter how long I ignore him, when I need him, he is there. Fascinating!

One of the most fascinating people that I know influences my life every day.  His music, his life, his attitude. Wanting to be the best, and becoming it, because he was living his ideas.  I love Freddie, every day of my life!
An endless list of people that are fascinating. And if I have to choose now, I really am not sure who to choose. Mother Theresa? Ghandi? The Dalai Lama, Vincent van Gogh, My best friend?

I shall surprise you with my answer at today's writers challenge.
Someone who fascinates me ... 

Audrey Hepburn
A woman with an amazing life. her films and performances give so many people joy. Her work as ambassador for UNICEF, started when it was not yet 'cool'  that celebreties were putting their name on humanity.
Her smile, and her incredible beautiful heart.  I can talk hours about the why, but it will be incomplete, the more I write.
A hug from the most fasscinating person that I can think of.  Priceless.
  

4/30 10 Intresting facts about myself

10 intresting facts about myself.

The 4th day in the writer's challenge and what a subject it is!
First of all I was a bit confused about what we have to do
10 intresting facts, okay, but for who they are intresting?  Are my daily routines or habbits, what are so normal for me, probably intresting for others? 

I can't imagine someone is intrested in the colour of my socks (black)  or the fact that my toe nail is looking weird, but when you are a feet fettisch, such might be intresting.

Point is, I have no idea who you are, who is reading this, so what do you find intresting on me?

I think I tell simply a few common things about myself. Who is following me at Facebook, or even longer, might know a lot of me already. Good, no longer babbling. Okay, the babbling will be longer, this is in the end a writing challenge.
Not a poetry challenge. 
I love to write poetry(1),  as long as I can remember.  
I am a silent person and in school I often was the thinker (2),  and I did not always agree with the things that we had to do.  I am a person that asks why, and, if the answer is not satisfying me, I try to figure out why that is, and if I have an alternative what works as well.

I had not an easy time at school, but when I could write, behind my little wall, it was fine.
I continued to write when I discovered the music.  I am a huge Queen fan (3), but next to it I love a lot of other music. I spent a big deal of my money in music (4), I can not count the times that I was laying in my sleeping bag before the ticket office, to assure myself from good tickets.
Or before the record shop, to be sure to have the first release of another LP or single (vinyl was not cool, but just the only thing to get).

My music brought me a lot of friends, especially Queen friends. I was a llong time member from the Queen fanclub and did correspond with people worldwide, from America to Russia. This was in fact the prelude to what soon afterwards became the digital world.
Can you imagine, I disliked computers?  Well, I really did (5).  I was working in the health care, loved to work with people and told that I never should want to work with a machine. Back to human (to stay in Queen lines, I never can be serious longer then 10 minutes in a row (6), really!)
Times changed, jobs changed, I had my children, a boy and a girl (7) and I was offered a computer course in the very early days. There was no windows, yet, there was a kind of internet, called ARP, what just became public, after that it was developed for defence services.
I loved it, and I found a job in it, where I could combine my care for human and the work with computers, when I started working at UNICEF.  It was a wonderful time, and even there I was able to combine my wrtiting, the company newsletter had my weekly essays. Queen remained to be the red ribbon, because, what a coincidence, my direct colleague was a Queen fan from the early days as well, I went with him to a concert of Brian May, because in that time Freddie passed away.  And I still get tears in my eyes when I think about it, every year in November my mood changes and then I realize again how it comes.

Mood changes are part of me. I am a thinker and I am very sensitive. I cry easily(8) what not always is a disadvantage. In my role as chairmain in some labour organisations (9) I could not stop my tears when I felt that I (or my goals) were treated unfair or rude, and then the tears jump out. Many manager did not know what to do with it, and from the moment that I had learned to use this, I knew that that was the moment to get my things working. Sounds like a child's trick, but it works in big business as well :)
As being a thinker I also tried to find out how my mood changes were coming to me, and why.  I discovered at pretty young age that there were things that I can see and others not.
Colours and more. Accupuncture. Energy healing. (10).

And that, my beauties, were the 10 (more or less) intresting things about me. The red lines are Queen, Human and writing.  And when I write this, I wonder where I left the book in what some of my poetry is printed. It must be here, close to my books of astrology. 
I thnk there are some more intresting things, but who knows, maybe there is a next challenge to write  :)




 

3/30 My first love/ first kiss

Writer's challenge day 3. My firts love/first kiss

 Nice, these subjects.  I think that the one who originally spread this contest, had the idea that people could open up and reveal their deepest secrets with this.

However, that is not working with me, today -smiles-

My first kiss, my first love, I call her Gee, for the ease :-), and just like yesterday, this brings me back to my early memories, around kindergarden and ground school.

Yes, I think I was a romantic child, when I was about 6 years old!  
We were raised ats a good catholic family, and that did not mean just going to the church, but it meant as well attending a catholic school.
It was much further away then the other school (around the corner), but we went there for the good purpose. And  imagine, people of today.. We walked 25 minutes to get to school, no one brought us by car.. Yes, when we were lucky, we were transported at the bicycle of my dad, but usually it was a long walk along the canal. 

On our walk to school we met other school comrades and one of them was Gee. We often walked together and talked together, and played together. Gee was not only a pretty girl, but Gee had a television at home!  (we not -yet-).  So, at our free wednesday afternoons we went there to watch tv as well.
Soon I fell for Gee's charmes and she for mine. We often went to school walking hand in hand, and, since it was a long walk, we made our stops as well.
It was spring, 52 years ago, that we took our break, and rested at that bench at the water, behind the daffodils.  We talked about the future and it was  not even a discussion, we should get married and get children and all.  Life is so easy, and uncomplicated!

At that day the daffodills were flowering so beautiful, I picked one and gave it to Gee.
She gave me a heavenly smile, and a big kiss. Help!!!  I almost was strangled by her, should I be rude and break free, or should I wait until she lets me go?
At that momentt, the entire complicated matter from having a relationship passed me in one second.
It took me more then 40 years to realize that.

About 15 years ago I met Gee again, we drank a coffee together.  She told me that she could not really remember the things pretty well, but her mother has told the stories so often ...   
Yea, that really did p...  me off!
And so, consequently, after more then 30 years, my first love finnally found her place in the row  :-) 

I am happy now, believe me. And te memory is sweeter the more years that pass.

2/30 . My earliest memory

Writer's challenge, day 2. My earliest memory

Other then a few of the people that I read here, my earliest memory come not from the very first years, but from the time that I went to school (kindergarden)

It was December 6th, 1965, the day after 'the' children event in the Netherlands, sinterklaas/saint nicklas.

On the 5th of December Sinterklaas gives everyone (especially the children that behave good) presents and in that year I got a goose! With a key at its side, with what you can wind it up and then the goose could walk. Big fun that was!

Very proud I took it to school next day, we were showing eachother our presents and I showed my goose. The teacher did wind up the goose for the 4th or 5th time, everyone was exited about the magic walk and then... you can guess it.... The goose refused to walk! Oh my gosh, what a drama! Many bitter tears I did shed, and the goose went back in its box, and the teacher wrote a note with it, that she did 'kill' the goose (she defintely used other words, but that is how I felt it was).
 
Sadly I went home, no one could cheer me up.

My mother put the box with the goose aside, promised me a new one, but that was not helpful! I wanted THIS goose, not another!

We were sitting later, having dinner, I stiil was so sad, and not hungry at all. And then all the sudden, we heared a noise from the box, and my goose did walk again!
 
I was soooo happy that I did not want to eat :-D

That are my earliest memories. The goose is still with me, and guess what? it still can walk, even with one of his feet broken.

1/30 Five problems with social media

Five problems with social media



What a day!

The alarm went off this morning, way too early, just like every day.
Since the moment that I had that brilliant idea, to use the alarm at my I Pad, I am waken up by my favorite voice, singing, how can I go on,
what is a good question, and I still haven't found the answer.  Nevertheless, broken and long not ready to wake up, I wipe awway Freddie and right away get a view in the most important messages that I did miss during the night.

Yes! :-) 23 new likes at my photo, let's see what comments I got.  Ah, Facebook is slow, again... hmm.. wait.. it is not slow ... no connection...
Argh, I have to hurry now, it took me 20 minutes to find out that I am off line, now I better go and take my shower. 

Freshly showered and shaved I stumble to the kitchen. Coffee time it is. I grap my phone, and look if the connection is back. Yes!  we are on line again, the day is saved.
Peep.. I hear, oh, I have a new follower on Twitter, who??   Oooooh a photographer, how cool, I need to look up his page later, maybe he can give me more 'likes'  at facebook as well...
But, first.. coffee...  Ahhh that smelll.... A slice of bread.. Lunch made.. Waking up my better half... (in random sequence...).. Listening to the news and then I hear that song at the radio.
Again!!  I hear it for weeks already, but I cannot get the tittle of it.  And since my phone is still in reach, I open shazam and .. tadammmm the miracle happens,
there is the title and the clip wooooo hoooo!

I finally know what my song is and, without thinking any further I annoy my friends with it with sharng it, directly from my phone to Facebook and twitter..
Not that they need it, but... it feels so good to pretend to be important! 

Where did the time flow? I have to go already, so, hush, hush, kiss, bye  and off I am in the street. A great view in the street, quickly I take my camera (what sometimis is my phone) and make a picture
This will look cool at Instagram, I mumble, and am just in time to catch my train, where I edit the picture and am even in time to get it at the holy Instagram page (slooooow connection) before I am at my destination.

The working day goes nicely. The weather is good, the people are in a good mood and so am I. I know that I did do my digital duties and I only need to check now and then if people are reeally giving me likes and kuddos.
What they do.
Then I see a text message coming in.  Hey Hans, what's up?  I saw you were logged in, but you did not talk to me, are you angry at me?

Sigh

I take my messenger and reply that I am working, so that I have no time to chat.

And when I am sitting later in the evinging at the couch, with my ipad at the lap, checking emails, I need almost an hour to explain why I had no time to chat, but why I had all the time to check my accounts.
Exhausted I drop in bed. I am so tired, thaat I almost forget to install my alarm for tomorrow. And while doing that, I see the latest messages of the day popping at my screen. Now I am sure I did not miss a thing, and can drop asleep

Until the alarm wakes me way too eartly. I swipe away the music, read my messages and try to get up...