An effective way to destroy my enemies

This was in my inbox, yesterday, and I did think alot about it.

In fact I am a peace loving person, but somehow I am able to make enemies easy as well. How comes?  Well, I do know, it is because I am emotional and I fight for justice, peace, and so more.

So, when I, for example, see again how much money is spent for the royal change in the Netherlands, I simply can NOT shut up, and I can NOT stop kicking against it, and because it is not possible to kick the proper persons, I have to do it with people that are around me.
Just an example. It is not working this way, this time, but it could, easily.  When one tells a word about the wrong football team (of what there are many); (s)he can get the load as well, just out of the blue, when I feel like.

But, I dont know if it is the age, or something else, I can make enemies easily, but I can make peace as well.
There are a few good examples of that in every part of my life.  And, to bring it back to the digital part, what it is about here, sometimes fights result in close friendships that last through the years.

No, not all are in that happy circle. A few people I cannot become friends with. But that is because they are dangerous, using others to reach their goals. We all know what can happen when people recruit people around them, to fight for the targets of their leader :)



“We are not enemies, but friends. We must not be enemies. Though passion may have strained, it must not break our bonds of affection. The mystic chords of memory will swell when again touched, as surely they will be, by the better angels of our nature.”

I am

It is one of those days today!

I always have problems when the time comes that people that I miss have their memorable days. Birthday, for example. And I find it extreme difficult to accept that I have to miss someone, around those days.

When the memories come, to the days that all was so good and well, it is even more hard to accept that those days are over. People go their own way, partially from free will (I dont want/need you now), or because it is their time to leave.

And at those days I build up a high and huge wall, that I allow no one to come behind. It is just me and my sadness, being there. You might not see me at that moment. You might think that I am not there, but then you are wrong. I am there, you just dont see me.  Maybe I am stronger there then you will ever realize.
And for sure I am stronger there, with you, then that you should allow me to come, when you knew that I was that close with you, right now.

One day you will understand me. For now I just say, I love you, I miss you. You're not there. But I am, both there and here.

“I’m selfish, impatient and a little insecure. I make mistakes, I am out of control and at times hard to handle. But if you can’t handle me at my worst, then you sure as hell don’t deserve me at my best.”

Now

Time is a wonderful thing. Time waits for nobody. Time flies, Time is on our side. How much is written about time, how many times(!) a day  we use the word

And when I read lines as below, what I fully agree with, I think about that it is indeed now, and only now, that we can do things. Right at this moment, what we do now, will cause what will be our future.
When we ignore things (I dont want to do that official phone call today) we must live with that ithings might not change, or change in a way that we dont want it (delays... hm).
It is our decision, right now.

I was discussing this morning with someone, how difficult it can be to feel locked up in a situation. Like, I work too hard, I have no time to live..  and the line that came after that.. I cannot change it.

Hmm, in fact that is bullshit. You can change it, of course you can! The question is, what do you want. Quit, or change your job, getting more time and probably less money in the pocket, or do you continue your suffering without that things change.

I have to say goodbye again to someone that did pass away. An old, sweet person, who was always shining her light to me, until the last cup of coffee.

Not that she had no pain, no.  She just wanted to live life, as long as she could. I think that her decision was the right one. And I also am sure that that is not always an easy way.

(so, if you choose to think that someone did disappoint you, and you do not even want to listen to the why... If you choose to think that you are all alone, and refuse to see who is around you...  It is up to you. you can change it. Not in the future, but right now.  Step on forward!



“The future is completely open, and we are writing it
moment to moment.”

Unforgettable moments in history - 20 years ago

Time flies...

It was in the newspaper here. 20 years ago, today, was the first (and only) time that the remaiing members of Queen did perform. And what a performance that was, the Freddie Mercury Memorial concert.

I can remember sitting for the television and not even taking the time for a little break. What an artists, and what a show. It was an unique tribute to (for me) the greatest performer ever, our dear Freddie, who I still miss, every day.
And who still is with me, every day. There passes no day or his music is played at the radio. And, when I am in the mall, or even on holidays, then he suddenly pops out of the speakers, and I cant help myself, I have to sing with him. It always makes me happy, this music has been with me at every important moment of my life,

One of the highlights of this Memorial undoubtedly was the performance of Metallica. Then a ton louder and better as today. But hey, should I, of all people, say so?:)

I did watch the entire video today again. With so many highlighs, the tribute of In Extreme. And in fact I think there was only one disaster, the performance of  Elton John. But hey again, who am I to say something about that.

Same old game

so it is time for a blog again. And this time it is the all continueing story about power talk, ego boosts and loosers. 

Yes, that time again, and of course it can be related in many ways, this time I reflect it to the MafiaWars game that I play, and that I still love to play.

How many times did I say, that I love my games, and that I play it until I dont like it anymore? Sometimes it rules life a bit more, at other moments real life is sparkling, so I play, have my fun and when I accidentically get stronger or better, then it is okay, but I dont mind when others rank me out. I play it my way and I love it, I cannot play it another way.  Well, I can, but I wont. :)

A consequence of my (only) condition to be on line, and that is having a good time, is that I select the people I am friends with. In those silly games where you need to ask as many stuff from others, we are all encouraged to have even people in the friends lists that never will be friends, but, as from free will, we do choose it to play our games. And sometimes one rises above and becomes a real friend. No matter how many miles away, it happens.

Same happens in the opposite way. People at the friends lists appear to be a pain in the butt. Now you can choose to let them in your list, because you need them for the game, and that is fine. But... dont let me see you whining about them then. You have always the choice, letting it, or changing it.

it gets sadder when people want to tell you what to do.  hey hans, why are we no friends anymore? Oh, I dont want to be friends with you anymore, that must be enough.
Do you mind then hans, that I will ruin you in the game?
no not at all, it proves I did make the right choice.

HA! eat my shorts :)

Weekly (weather) report

It is April 9 today and it still is no spring. Nature refuses to stay in wintermood, other then we, human beings, and the daffodils will soon be flowereing.

The bushes at my 'every week a picture' position are still flowering. Soon the pink blossoms will dissapear and the yellow will take over, followed by the green.

and, no matter what happens, there will be a lot of water, as well in the pond ans in the nature.


What a lovely place to relx.

The feather

I am a strong believer in that there is more between heaven and earth then that we can explain.

And because I do believe it, I do see the signs as well. Is it just me following my thughts, or is it realy a sign? No one shall be able to explain it, but it happens.

In the years I do believe in signs. It happens now and then that I ask signs, for making steps further. And at the moments I do ask, when I need help, there comes an answer. Not always in the way that I expect it, or want it, but there are signs, for me who sees them.

Today, 2 years ago that my mother did pass away (what was that a lovely sunny day!), and yesterday, we did return from our trip to Gent. I was thinking, sadly I cannot tell mom anymore about it, she sure should have loved the story about the St Baaf, because that is not only one of the most dominant places in Gent, but as well in haarlem, the city that she founded her family in.

When coming home, right before our door, there was that feather. Where it came from? No idea, it was clean and proper, like new.  I did pick it up, and took it upstairs. And this moring, when I woke up, I dd realize where it was about.

How many times, in the pat, at the moments that I did ask for help, I did find a feather as well?  Many times and it is always amazing again that it happens. It is the answer, it is the symbol to go on, and that my decission is good. i am convinced of it.
So, I am grateful again for this sign. Thanks mom, I am glad that I do something good, in your eyes. I knw that I  am not always acting the way you should like, but I definitely do my best to be good, for me and for who is around me.

Take care, and give Freddie a hug from me. The candle burns, the feather lays in front of it,. And I feel happy. I realy do

I love you mama

The sadness of Belgium

We are back from our wonderful trip to Gent, Belgium. What a magnificent place that is, so full of history, immense buildings, intresting architecture, and, not less important, the places to eat, drink and enjoy the good things of life. 

If you ever want or need to taste how friench fries realy need to taste, buy yourself a Friet in Belgium.  Then you know what it should be, and also how it might be served :)

There is so much to tell about the 3 days we were in Belgium, so close snapped between the Nehterlands (I love the 'frlemmish' tongue!) and Germany, but a world of difference.

We (of course) did travel with the train, and when we came ant the main stations in Belgium, we were confrontated with the things that we know from the news. Belgium has problems, financial and more.  Hoemeless people everywhere, and the railway stations cold and unfriendly.  So much difference if you see the wealth, the shops and all at the stations in Germany and the Netherlands.
Also the houses, when you travel this way you see how miserable many of them are.

Here a picture of the beautiful architecture in the railway station of Gent/St Pieters.  The exception in my storry ;)

Understand me correctly, we had a wonderful trip, and Gent is a rich city. The (history) is well preserved and maintained, it is a LOVELY city, what can easily compare with Copenhagen, Cologne, Utrechtt, also the middle large cities in Europe.   But it is clear why there is so many written and told about the 'tears of belgium'. It is a country that might be a good example for the rich countries. We should be careful with what we have.
Gent, the city that was once Europe's most important trade center, in the 13th century.
The city with the St Baaf Kathedraal, in what the famoes painting from the brothers Van Eyk  resides.

The historical Belfort, the place from what out the wars and 'issuues' with other cities were settled. And what has a wonderful 'clock tower'.  Small stairs as well and a great view ...



The famous clock/c hurch bell St Roeland, that did announce the uproars in the citty




and on top (yes we were there... we are heroes ;).. the dragon, that should scare the opponents enough ...

Gent.. a city that is worth a visit very much!

Fool or wise

"A fool thinks himself to be wise, but a wise man
knows himself to be a fool."

~ William Shakespeare

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I never shall  label me as a wise man. Therefore I make too many mistakes and do too many silly things.
But, considering being silly and stupid is part of me, I can live with it better and better and even use it in my advantage.
So, if you ask me, what my strong sides are, don't be surprised when I reply with  my chaos and my sillyness.
Of course is all spiced up with a lot of humor and sarcasm.  But you know the face behind the smile of the clown, right?

It is so easy to judge oters. It is so easy to punish yourself with cutting off the lines with omeone, without that you took the effort to find out the reason why the other did behave like that.
It is much easier to accept the other for who (s)he is and what (s)he is doing, then being frustrated about what you expected them to do.

The suitcase is ready to be packed. And I look very much forward to that small tirp. 

Brugge or Gent?

Hurray, a week off together and plans are made to visit our neighbour counttry Belgium this time.

Typical me, I have had in my mind for a couple of days that we should go to Brugge. A beautiful city, and I thought I was there a long(er) time ago already.
Today I did check the connections and hotels, and concluded. that I did not mean Brugge.  We were there, on that same trip ...


....  but the city I have been mixing up with is Gent!  Gent with the Lei, the small streets and the huge Cathedral, the paintings of Van Eyk



Tomorrow we will go and book. For our train travel it doesnt matter.  But I think it is pretty handy to end in the proper city after all.

With me that MIGHT be a uprise, after all.  Hmm, I look forward to it. The weather can be like today, sunny, bright, the temperature, well, we dont have too high expectations from that. This will be contineued later this week, check it out yeah