Let's talk about behaviour.

And, of course, of the behaviour of others. It is always way more easy, to point to what others should do different, rather then looking into the mirror and change yourself.

So, having said that, I not tell that I am better then others, because I definitely am not.
It is more easy to see behaviour of others, and  the thing for me is, to learn from that.  They are usually the mirror, that  show exactly, how things work.

What I want, is to learn from it.

So, here the story.
Someone has taken care a long time for the animals of someone else. It started as helping a neighbour,  the neighbour became ill, was not able to care anymore, also, the helping hands became essential, without them the animal owner could not keep his cattle.
In time, there came a moment, that the helping hand did want to get some payment for the work. The work is hard, and the cattle owner is proven to have plenty of money.
Tjhe helping hand and the cattle man did argue about it, the cattle man got more and more ill, and the struggle went on. The neigbour moved out (what had nothing to do with the conflict), and continued to take care of the cattle, because the payment was settled.

A lot of trouble came with the payment, especially when the cattle man got ill again and was not able to arrange the payment. The two fought  over email, and  a relative of the cattle man was invloved, he  took over to take care of the animals (who were very much reduced, because of the intervention of Animal Care who has taken care over the cattle, what was in very poor conditon.
The ill man came home again, he started to build up the cattle again, could not do it without the help of the family member.

The ex neighbour had an issue about the last payments, and aftter another fight,  with intervention of the family member, it was settled and the ext neighbour and the cattle man were happily without any needed contact.

The ex neighbour kept in contact with the family member, who told now that the cattle man has passed away.
Neighbour told her friends about the death, and is very sad.

(still following? lol)
My first reaction was, thank heaven, this is so good for the poor animals, finally they all get away from this man, who could not take care of them for a long time already, but refused to give up.
The neigbour, however is sad for the lost of the cattle owner.  It was a man who was very ill, who could not be held responsible for his behaviour...

It left me wondering.
I know tht people who fight with each other, often need that, as a way that they care for each other, not letting go.
I find it hard to accept the grieve of someone, who talked so bad before, about the man that now not lives anymroe..

Should I learn my lesson from it?

 No matter how badly you are hurt, it needs a big heart, to be able to forgive?

Or is it a way to get attention again, when your own life is ruined (again) and you are left alone`?

I find it very hard to have empathy. Not for the Man with the animals, but also not for the neighbour with her fights, who never accepted the situation for the animals (as often said), but who did not try to change the bad situation. Money seemed more important.

My heart is not big enugh to forgive.
I should learn from this.

And not only, that people can make strange moves, spreading hate about others and still love them, appearantly.

Thank you for who was able to finish reading my rambling. I go to prepare the noodles, for dinner. It is not approperiate to eat fried chicken, today :)