thank God ...

We are in December. And this year the December month will confrontate us with restrictions that are needed to get the virus a bit under control.

Intensive checks, everywhere, about our vaccination and even more for people who are not vaccinated.  
I not understand the  very few rules, that come, to me it could have been a bit more strict, but, alas, I understand the immense pressure of the shops and others who make a lot of money in this wonderful time of the year.

I do try to not wonder too much, about the night clock in the netherlands, and the open pubs here in Germany.
I can follow my own rules. I not need to wait until it is orderedk to wear a mask in the street. I do it from free will, because I think with that I can limit the possible infections. If the virus spreads, then not through me!
So.. the traditional Christmas markets are there. Not so crowded, and strictly controlled (I hope..). It is a different thing, because it is not the 'no Iworries, christmas is coming'  but it is the careful 'christmas is coming, but be careful with celebrating.
Some Christmas markets are huge (cologne), others are small, and rather more a family and friends gathering.

I debated with myself, if I should go to one, to visit some friends. That is one of thos small markets. 
I decided to go not.  I do not feel well, with, when there is a strict control, and then meeting friends, with who I, without any question, would not take the safe distance.
I am not afraid, but, as I wrote above, the virus should not spread through me.

In that optic, I am happy, that, a few days ago, I went photo shooting with my bestie. Us two, in the anonymousity of the big city. Yes, the double check at the christmas market, but no one there who knew us, and the hot chocolate was exactly perfect.  

Friends will miss me, this weekend. I don't feel bad about it. A bit sad, yes, I wished it would be different.
The decission to not go there, is giving me a good feeling. I not need to be scared about what can happen. I can prepare safely in the days to christmas. And, who knows, maybe I will go to one market, sunday. But then alone, so that I feel secure, and can face my dear ones  with a safe feeling, that all is fine and well'

And it is a sign of the crazy times, that >I, on foward, feel that I have to explain my decsion :)